Have you ever been so sure of your future that no one in the world could tear it away from your mind? Have you ever held on so tightly to a belief that not even you could convince yourself that it wasn’t going to come true? Have you ever believed in yourself so much that every day you encouraged yourself to work harder to achieve your end goal?
Have you ever gotten to a point where that dream started to fade? Have you ever gotten so excited about your dreams that the disappointment attached to rejection diminished your belief that your dream would even come at all? Have you ever felt like a fool for believing so strongly in something that seemed as if it would never come?
I’ve been in both of these scenarios… in less than 6 months. This year has been such a challenging and enlightening year for me that I am sure I will never forget. This year, God showed me the possibilities of a life that I never thought could exist. In the middle of the year, I was so sure of my purpose, so sure of my dreams, so sure of where I would be and what I would be doing. I knew that one day I was going to get what I wanted. I knew that I’d be in a position to create the change that I want to see. I knew that I would get to write and travel the world telling the stories of the people that I would meet. I accepted this future as a reality and held on so tightly to it that I was constantly looking for an opportunity to see it come to fruition. I held on and I waited, I looked around and I waited, I sought opportunities and I waited. But after awhile I realized that my life hadn’t changed. I began to slowly slip into an occupation that wasn’t my passion because I let go of the idea of something greater. I slowly began to let go of the reality I once created in my head. My dreams began to shift into fantasy and thus felt unreachable. I stopped looking forward and began to look at the present. My vision was once again limited as it was before my eyes had been opened by God. I let them slide shut like a sleepy toddler that had been fighting sleep for hours. I limited my perspective and thus limited my chances of living a more fulfilled life.
This past Sunday at church, Bishop said the words “You need to remember when you used to dream” and I felt like it was directly for me. I recognized that I had stopped dreaming but I was so deep into my current reality that I wasn’t strong enough to bring myself back to a hopeful place. I no longer strived to get to the place that I want to be. I had let it go so far that it was no longer a thought in my mind. This morning, God reminded me that I need to go back to chasing my dream. God reminded me that those feelings that I once had about my dreams, were real. They weren’t all emotions and smoke, they weren’t fantasy, they were real. The thoughts and visions that I’ve had were in my mind for a reason. Somehow, I had convinced myself that I had completely made all of it up. Working with children, I hear all types of “dreams” come from of a child’s imagination. Sadly enough, I began to think that my desires equated that of a child that desired to be a dinosaur when they grew up.
Well today, God informed me that I had to get back to working towards what I wanted. Life is too amazing for me to waste it in a place that does not satisfy my spirit. That isn’t to say that it will always be easy or that it will happen tomorrow; but I know that giving up on it means that it will never happen. I started thinking and imagining places that I want to see. Opportunities that I wished would come available. If I lost sight of the dream, would I even recognize the right opportunities to live it when It came to me? Probably not.
It’s refreshing to be encouraged by those that believe in you, but it’s life changing to be encouraged by my Creator. God telling me to go back to dreaming is a direct confirmation that I wasn’t crazy for believing that I could pursue my hearts desires. My challenge is to remember this on the days where I would rather sleep all day then get out of bed. My challenge is to grab tightly and pull my dreams back in when I feel them slipping away or being pushed out by the stress of my reality. God makes it possible to live a life worth living not just a life we’ve settled for. It takes hard work, but the work will be nothing compared to the reward that will be gained. God is awesome. I’m so grateful for a relationship with Him. I’m so grateful that I don’t have to live a life that I’ve settled for.
It’s time for me to start dreaming again. Will you join me??